Dear Diary,

I have been feeling sad.
And I don't really know why I feel this way.
I have a lot of mixed emotions.
And I don't like it.
I prefer to be happy.
Although I do sometimes at certain
times and moments I suddenly feel happy
and then 5 minutes later I feel moody.

Yes. I am weird.
Well I do not like the look of my results.
Its not a nice number.
My L1R4 is like two digits.
And i don't qualify for many courses in Poly.
Wait. Is it R4 or R5 for poly?


well whatever it is, I can't even get into many courses
in Poly what more to qualify for JC right?
Well I really really want to change.
But I don't know how.
But I know I will someday.

Well I just hope that someday is soon.
So i wont regret later.

I have came to realise that I won't have brains
especially without any hard work and effort put in.
And how would someone succeed in life.
They either have talent,brains or beauty.

And I don't think I have any of those.
Hmm maybe I do.
But not specializing in one.

Jack of all trades?
That's no good.
Or I have not realised it yet.

Okay enough of sad talk.
I now just want to enjoy life.
Yet work real hard.
Yes I will try.
But I don't seem to be putting in any
efforts.

Yes I'm one lazyass.
OKAY! stop it.

Widad you can do it.

NOT!sldhgasjg;a

okay I am just sad.
I need happy food.
Yes ah mummy bought me
B&J :D

OUh. I need to stop spending unnecessarily.
I want to help my parents but not spending
on stuff that i do not need.
And don't burden then.

Wahh. like real like that.
Yes. REAL!.
okay i dunno what bullshit I'm talking.
but yeah.
whatever.

Bye shitified people.

Dear Diary,

okay no offences. My dear little cousin wanted to do

a reenactment. if you know who.. clever.

YES AT LAST! I have finished princess hours.

And I LOOOOOOVVVEEEE!!! it!

And Shin IS DAMNDAMN HOT LAHH!!

Joo Ji Hoon.. Aaaahh *melts*

I just love he way the story is

I love his character although he is such a jackass.

okay. I also love the songs.

I JUST LOVE IT LAH OKAY?!

okayy I'm getting bored/tired you know.

need a new change.

i need to change my surroundings.

i need a new change of attitude towards life i guess.

no more lazyass okay.

well its easier said then done.

so do help out yeah?

HOHO! i just realised i have a bear that looks

like Alfred.

hehe. okay stop dreaming lahh!!

back to reality.

i am widad.

i am a daughter,sister,friend.

okay i dunno what to blog now.

bye.

Dear Diary,

Okay yes its like one week.
Sorry my loyal readers NOT!

Maybe i shall just update with pictures.
Not in the mood luhh.

First day:

Ladies.



Beyloness.



Love them.





LOVE HER!


Caught eating burukly.


Second Day:










Third day:



ouh ouh before this house above.
we went to my grand uncle's house.

So he has this like pri 3 son.
AND SO WHAT HE'S LIKE MY UNCLE!?
ahha.
then mihah was like telling him to call her father
by name
since they're like cousins.

So she was like" farid.. you know my father your cousin?"
nods.
"then next time you just call him aman lah no need ami"
haha. okay.
I have a cute uncle okay!

I'm bored to death.
My results stink.
I failed my humans and sciences.
Likejohflashgaljs
and my poa from a1 to like b3/4.
sucks right?

Okay i have learnt my lesson.
Study in advance!
and not to go to the _ _ _ _ _ _ a day before one of my papers.
yes farah. you win.
HAPPY?

sheesh.

Okay i am just feeling like i dunno what.
What am i going to do in life.
I don't really know who my like TRUE TRUE self is anymore.
I am becoming more naughty.
and i don't want to go on that way.
cause i have been brought up by
good parents and then have taught me well.

okay i dunno what the fcuk I'm talking.
yes widad blabbers.

Ouh and i may be slow.
and i know i am not stupid.
just lazy.
yes plain lazy.

ouh i just started watching princess hours.
meek budak ketinggalan zaman.
ITS DAMN GOOD AND ADDICIVE WOKAY!
and the crown prince is hothot.
Joo Ji Hoon?
wahhhh. melts siiol.
and i hate Yul. and Hyo-Rin?
lksjgas;jg;jas
pigasses.

okay I'm blabbering again.
and my typing sucks today.
orang dah lamer tak gunakkan computer.
GUNAKKAN? hahahha.
i would have used "pakai" but you cant put on a comp.
haha.
okay stop!!


i miss people. but i dunno who.
and i need a hug. from everyone.
and it must be sincere.
if not get lost.
meek hong.

andiamnotdesperate
right?

aahhH!!! i need to sing my heart out.
atiqah i love you.
in fact i love all my friends.
esp girlfriends.
and i miss my two besties.

ITS LIKE I DUNNO HOW MANY THOUSAND YEARS [meek lebih lebih]
i have not had a proper conversation with them.
i really miss them lahh.
stupid faiz and roshan.
yes those two.

AND i don't think I'm going to Sarawak.
mom says she doesn't wanna pay.
so sad.

okay and i need to sing. and i feel like playing the
drums.
so uzairrahh!!! when can i follow you guys jam&butter again.
hahaha
I'm changing subject. and i write nonsense.

okay bye.

Dear Diary,

new skin.
New poem. but its not that nice uh.
never mind here it goes.

On the sand I lay,
I look up to the sky
oh so blue,
I see the clouds form a picture
of me and you.
And it looks so good.

I stare and I stare
and soon the clouds disappear.
Just like reality
I realised this
that I could never be wrapped in
your arms anymore

Do you know how it feels
to know the bond we built
is no longer strong
and its breaking apart
as the waves crash on

Despite all this bull and crap
I'll just enjoy my last moments with you
and that's that.

OKAY THIS ONE IS DAMN LAME
NAK MAMPOS TAK BOLEH TAHAN!

Feeling giddy
Very sleepy
Trying to study
But later I'll party
Then I'll be mad
After I see
The marks that I got
Everyone putting the blame on me
Its okay I deserve it I know
I'll try not repeating the same mistakes
Abi & Ummi

hahah. lame right?
yeah esp the last part.

okay sleepy now.
bye.

Dear Diary,

OKAY like finally i update
cause like finally EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!

okay but not too keen to get my results though.

So i hate my dad.
something happened.
but cant hate him right?

yeah so i dunno lahh.
like mixed emotions.

I expected today umm
more like yesterday to be damn fun.
BUT it was the total opposite.

I was looking forward to it like hell.
And first in the morning i misplaced my $$.
then i started to sneeze and got sick.
then the incident at orchard.

I was bloody embarrassed and like
felt like kjhaslfkhgsofgbasldhgjs.
okay don't really wanna talk bout it.

On a happier note though..
I managed to buy some stuff for raye.
like phew.
And i still want to continue shopping.

To Uzair: HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY!
hope you would have fun and enjoy the
day.

okay so i really dunno lah.
okay don't want to talk bout this anymore.

I want to enjoy my celebrations wokay?
I love my friends lahh.. every single one of you.
you make a difference in my life.

Bye suckers.
meek kurangajar. haha.
meek budak ketawa sendiri [bks]
meek tak habis habis meek.
OUH HANI REMEMBER
BNKLLO.
budak nak kencing langgar lnaggar orang.
:D
okay bye.